I have a confession, I am missing my purpose. Yep, I have no clue what it is and have been searching for it for the past 2 years. I think after I got married I have been wrestling with the importance of my existence in this world beyond being a wife. Don’t get me wrong I love my husband but as I have talked about in previous blog entries, I don’t feel like “wife” is the only purpose I have to fulfill in this lifetime.
Now all I feel is wanting, a desire to do something greater. I just don’t know what that greater is. In my last couple of podcast episodes, I was joined by two wonderful life coaches, Dr. Sadi and Tanya J. Miller, but made me think about what I could be doing differently. These are the steps that I am going to take to get back to finding my purpose.
Pray and seek God:
To be honest I am perfectly okay with what is happening right now with the world. Now we all have a chance to see how much wasted time we have during a normal day. I plan to spend my extra time in devotional. I think the best way to find purpose is to immerse yourself in God’s word and conversation with Him. Proverbs 3:5-6 is what I plan to meditate on day and night. I have let the cares of this world direct my path rather than seeking the plans God has for me.
Take my advice:
If you don’t know, last summer I wrote an ebook called The Journey Back to Loving Yourself, published it and then hid it under a rock. Why? I felt like a fraud. I wrote the book describing a process I thought I had mastered, not knowing I would keep returning to that lesson again and again as the circumstances of my life change. So I plan to read and follow the exercises that are in the book to help me see where I am and focus on where I want to be.
Be comfortable with being uncomfortable:
This one is very hard for me. I HATE being uncomfortable. I will problem solve and strategize ways to move away from the discomfort and back into homeostasis. It’s human nature to stay with the status quo, this also causes you to be content with being mediocre, less than who you should be. I need to be okay with this discomfort because I feel like this is more of a push I need to move forward. I am tired of waking up every day dreading the humdrum pace of life. It’s time to let this discomfort push me into my purpose.